my heart is by your side

reserve!

2007-07-12T10:03:00.000-07:00

i simply hate reserve.....well....hate is too strong a word....come to think of it i just don't like reserve....the time every 7 months that I'm at the bottom of the crew scheduling barrel where i will never know what my flights are or even if I'm going to get a flight at best a day before and worst....45 minutes before....that doesn't even count airport standby where i wait for three hours to see if i get called in for a flight last minute...I'll be dressed and in the briefing office ready for any flight possible. if i don't get called then back home i go.....like now...I'm on standby 2 and that means they can call me from 10 am to 10 pm the whole day.....one more hour to go so i hope they decide not to call me anymore. please don't call me....at this state I'm too tired to do any long flight.

now on to what's been going on with me and sis (tel)...it's been 12 days now and we still don't talk to each other....i mean silence....we talk only when needed...a small small part of me wants this to be over....another part just doesn't want to give in....i want to see if she cares enough to confront me and ask.....so far i feel like she just wants to forget but i don't. at least...not for now....i wish ate could be our mediator but she's too far away.

story of sisterhood

2007-07-08T06:18:00.000-07:00

been a long time...so what has happened that i can deem worth writing down? or typing...whatever...still in Dubai and I'm on reserve now this month...it's that time where i don't have a specific flight roster laid out for like every other month ....it's just my turn...on another note...i haven't seen Mikey it what feels like ages...i miss my old friends back home specially i don't have any close friends here....i know there are potentials but i guess it's my fault because I'm too lazy to go out.....you see i like it in my apartment and I'm just lazy....i kind of find the ones i meet here not the type i would like to really like to get close too...Andrea and val come to mind but Andrea brings Ryan up and i don't like it....i don't even know how to tell her without her thinking I'm so affected....i don't think so because if i saw Ryan now i would just be a little embarrassed but not dumb stuck....i don't like him that way....if ever...just a friend....i hear he can be a really good one...val is nice plus she stays in my building so we will just have to see....hmmmm maybe.....but what really ticks me off right now is my sister, tell. I'm just so frustrated with her and i don't even know how to explain it to her....it's all the little things that have been building up...she's so irresponsible....majorly....one is with the papers for my dad's dentist thing....she had so much time to take care of it...by the way...it was her responsibility because she brought it up to my parents and she takes all the credit for that....as usual...so naturally she should take care of it right...well she wanted to leave it up to me...telling me that it had a one month due date and i had the next earliest flight....so i could have submitted sooner...well....that's not true because she had the documents with her and the earliest flights to actually submit it...she just forgot....why doesn't she own up to it? try telling her that and she calls me rude and a bitch...well....what a fucking bitch she is....so freaking scatter brained...another...even before that.....she knows that I'm sending Mikey here and her friend, Beth has a boyfriend who works in an agency....i contacted Beth and she contacted tell tell to inform her about the updates....did she tell me anything? no! i had to hear it from Beth cause i did a follow up on her. stupid bitch...another....she treats her friends far better than me...truly and I'm her sister by the way...you wouldn't think it....i did a flight with her and she made me feel like an outsider in that flight....every time i felt like i missed out on some gossip....i ask her and you know what she said...nothing...always shaking her head to say "nothing"....i had to hear it from someone else... you know the little things make me feel like an outsider for some reason happened because of her. just noticed that the best times i had where when i was not in the same place as her....Woodrose sucked...she was there...college was just perfect and she was totally not there....I'm just better off without her. she's such a mess anyway...so here we are...back to the now...and what happens? we are not on speaking terms...at all .....unless needed...i have nothing to say to her....let's try it out and i have a feeling I'll be better.

2007-06-01T11:11:00.000-07:00

i finnaly know mikey's 411

Miguel Enrique Eloriaga Quema.......
Emilita E Quema
"Babu" Vicente Maria Lozada Quema

Carlos Mariano, "Bong" Mirasol, "Chovi" Cathy
Maria Teresa Christina, Jose Maria - Fernando
Vicente Paulino, Caroline

been a long time

2007-05-29T10:56:00.000-07:00

wow....how long has it been? i can try to count but won't really do that.....i'll just say.....years. what's happend since then? Lots....first thing...i graduated. no repeats and my thesis group (fedie, lani and I) got best thesis for our course.....should i mention that i felt (and still do) that we didn't really deserve it? well....i didn't....another thing....my family lost almost all of our liquidity....we still have assets but they are difficult to liquidate....the main business is dead....my graduation has come at a very highly anticipated time. (at last there is no tuition to pay for) ....what else...graduation brings an end in my stay with the debate society....good thing though cause i felt that it was a very good time to end it......staying too long, in my belief, is not healthy for the heart....mine at least.....just felt like i got everything i could get from the society in terms of personal growth and that the end seemed just right....the biggest change.....my job.....i was so scared i would end up a bum but thank god ( i mean that truthfully, "thank GOD!") it didn't happen that way....instead i got a really good job as a flight attendant for emirates airlines in dubai.....i know what the cliche is....maid in the air or airhead job....what i have to say is this....true but so what.....i get a very very good compensation in terms of the financial independence and travel benefits that can just pop your eyes wide open.....how many 22 year olds live comfortably and don't depend on their parents?.....exactly.....plus i have a financial plan to cover my ass when i get too old to do this job. i am okay....i'm not stressed with my job and i don't bring homework home.....once the flight is over....the job is over, period.....................what else can i say...oh yes....the best thing so far.... I'm still with mikey and i have to say that our relationship is fine....i'm far away but we have learned that it's fine because what both of us are doing right now is part of the plan for our future together so it makes it worth it. what can i say? i love him:D

missing you all

2006-01-06T05:19:00.000-08:00

been so long since my last entry so here goes as to what has happend so far.... i'm done with ojt and in fact done with school na.....just waiting for my graduation ceremony and i'm off to the next step....whatever it may be...hopefully to get the job i wanted in hsbc....reason why i took ojt there in the first place.....candidate for best thesis now but god knows we don't deserve it.....at least that is how i feel....no offense to my two very great and hardworking groupmates! luv ya!!! anyway......haven't been talking to anyone from school except ferdy or kani regarding the thesis and of course mikey......everything still the same between mikey and me:D hope things just get better (i hope)....miss cess and jp and tin! i miss the debate crowd and debating under pressure....i miss the feeling of being at least a bit on top of my game when it comes to debating under pressure....i miss competing.....sometimes i just watch the news so i can think of debate.....i know.....sound kind of desperate but that is how it is for me right now.....i'm just in limbo waiting for the job i wishing for and waiting to graduate and waiting for something to just knock me off my feet.....i goal or something.....i'm waiting for my busy life to come back...the type of busy i look forward to.....i can't stand being stuck at home.....i honestly hate it....i miss the good old days when my biggest worry was to finnishing the term with a bang......and preparing for the surprises of the following term....i miss hanging out with the old crowd of debate when kev was still in csb.....i'm just ranting i guess....i gratefull for everything that happend though....i wouldn't change any part of it....looking forward to grad practice!!!!!! want to see you again! all of you!....i'm kind of scared of the next step....what happens after college....no definite plan.........

he he he...at long last...

2005-12-08T17:03:00.000-08:00

well...what has happend since the last time i posted?....hmmmmmmmm lets see.....A LOT!!!!!! ay....did i say y sis is engaged? wel, yes she is....soo to be mrs. carlynn l. san gabriel....well....good for her....i really am...said ias going to miss her but i don't think so anymore....we get fight often now....i really hate it that she gets so insecure about the look of (i'm in the cube now and talking to phil and chil....talikng about being fat and how to stop a kid from eating herself, chill has no right to talk about that!!!!) her entire future family. anyway.....waht's been gong on in my life? well...took ojt in hsbc ortigas in the trust...like it though...wake up really early every day to get there by 8:30 am. kay lang...i go with mikey everyday and it makes the trip souch more fun:) gotasked to extend and my boss is thinking of hiring me after but all i have to do is pass the test. i hope i pass it...i'm working as an ojt there until the end of the year. i have a fasion show today in school...getting only 1000 for it but okay na.....shopping money na rin...done na with the thesis....got 100! yahey!!!! any way...late for the rehersal so gotta go!!!!

at long last

2005-09-24T02:06:00.000-07:00

been so long since i posted anything:D he he he...well here goes...life has been somewhat kind of the same....still at home waiting and getting my papers fixed for ojt:D thesis is still looming over me and well....let's just say it is not easy. i kind of feel bad for my group mates knowing i won't be much help for this part of the thesis since i know nada about programming.....what i learned in ca is most of the business side and not the programming....another is ojt....i really want to get in a good company in the hopes of being absorbed...operative word---HOPES---anyway...just waiting and getting my papers ready...endorsement letters take so long!...what else has been going on? well....i miss my friends from school...cess (great crazy and smart friend), ferdi (cool, calm, collected, dependable, grounded and kind), jp (crazy on the outside but cool and mature on the inside), lani (one green minded girl! but a real friend at heart) and tin (photographer and the really good girl who is so much fun to be with). I REALLY MISS YOU GUYS NA!!! haven't been seeing you guys is kind of new to me....i don't want to get used to this...we will be entering different companies for ojt pa....well except for jp and ferdi cause i think they will be in the same company.....good for you:D....i also miss the debate crowd...luis (the cultured one), raphie (follower of god...need i say more?), charles (benchwarmer and gentleman), wilbert (huggable and great to make "lambing"), lee (brooding artist who is law...good irony), monita (can she keep a secret? duh! lips are sealed always), joel (commune leader and papa bear), luigi (hippie mama bear), carlo (most patient man i know), nicco (has a soft kinder side though he will never admit it, chubaka), rocco (brother of nicco and a good guy too), leah (safe to say she brightens my day), jay (proud to say my kid? yuck! really a good guy at heart), ralph (kind minority and cool), jackie (newbie but made a good impression), celso/jr (calm, collected, kind porn star! he he he), lem (gives free hugs, teases and really good advice), jon (the quiet and mad, but really a softy at heart), banana (a whole lot packed in a small container), mitch (yummy clean living he he he), old phil (america), new phil (hey cutie!), kevin (my brother at heart), dian (can be a good psychologist someday), if i missed someone then sorry...you can abuse my shout box anytime!...so here is how it is so far...nothing new really:D wait! mikey nga pala! don't miss you cause i get to see you more often than anyone:D he he he...thanks to you i got to go online today....thanks for fixing my busted hard drive, saving my documents and improving my computer:D....thanks! miss you guys na!!!!

sunday

2005-09-11T10:04:00.000-07:00

yesterday...i went to g4...as far as my parents know, i was with my sis being her guard but really i was with mikey...even my sis was helping me keep my cover alibi....she got alloowed and i got to go out with mikey...had fun too! we watched sky high...nice movie! fun! the story is simple enough but so much fun to actually see. anyway...ate in spam jam w/c by the way is not worth it! food suck! had fun overall:D got picked up in mikey's at aroung 12:50am....for the first time my sis was early:D even ate doesn't know:D he he he...she kept calling me pa naman thinking to join me and sis(rosary)...just kept not answering:D under the alibi that the place i was in, supposedly with sis, was too loud...he he he...it worked:D it was a nice and pleasant day:D today however was soooooooooo boring! just went to mass in saint james under the assumption that it would be cold and with only a few people (the 4:30 mass). we didn't know that it was in tagalog...deep tagalog pa! coudn't understand anything! no wonder ther were only a few people!:D hay! anyway...no need to go to school tom so more days of boredom to come:D

the advance b-day of ferdi!

2005-09-09T09:36:00.000-07:00

today was fun! of course the pressures of the last term are still looming but for this day....none of that was the focus of our minds.....to celebrate ferdi's 20th birthday w/c is actually on sept 11 pa....we went to g4 to watch brothers grimm and had dinner in chicken world! needless to say that we all had fun! we always do when we are together...tin brought a car so there was hardly any hassle...thanks to tin of course....all of it was ferdi's treat! as a last big bash before we graduate....now that the day is about to end....the pressures od thesis and ojt are setting in again but at least for today...i had complete bliss in the company of my best friends!:D

today is e-day!

2005-09-03T01:47:00.000-07:00

he he he....so far the weak has been kind to me. When it was course card distribution day, I went and attended the socials for debate. it was loads of fun...the food was great and the best part of all was the dessert! yum yum yum....getting together with everyone else was also a good thing..That rarely happens now and I doubt if it will be a common thing from now on...going to miss that bunch! anyway...the next day was ate's birthday! the big 33! he he...we spent the day together doing some chores but I had fun...I guess the oc inside of me had a celebration. ate in a Japanese restaurant that night and yum yum yum again! i'm not going to be surprised if I gained weight! hope not though...When Friday came I just spent the whole day again with my sister going around makati doing some errands and just hanging around the mall. I have got to say that sm prices are really hard to beat. they are even better than bazaars and the styles a basic that you really can't go wrong. Today is Saturday and we are preparing for my sister's "mamanhikan", I don't know if I spelled it wrong. all I know is that it is the time when the guy's family formally asks for my sister's hand in marriage....all that formality is kinda cute. of course the guy will be there too. all this tonight! he he he...my sister's going into the deep end! kidding...it's really cute! the first marriage in the family for us but the last marriage in the family for the guy. abet (the guy) seems to be a nice guy...I just hope that never changes for the worse!...he he he..hope not. anyway...that is all...oh ya! I wasn't allowed to go company hopping with cess, ferdi and jp. real bummer...hoping to see them again. I just printed my resume and giving it to my sister and to my mom. hope that would be enough to get me into a good job I would love to get absorbed into. anyhow.....gotta go so till next time!:D by the way if you don't get what e-day means by now...it's Engagement day! comment if you want:D he he he....so far the weak has been kind to me. When it was course card distribution day, I went and attended the socials for debate. it was loads of fun...the food was great and the best part of all was the dessert! yum yum yum....getting together with everyone else was also a good thing..that rarely happens now and I doubt if it will be a common thing from now on...going to miss that bunch! anyway...the next day was ate's birthday! the big 33! he he...we spent the day together doing some chores but I had fun...I guess the oc inside of me had a celebration. ate in a japanese restaurant that night and yum yum yum again! i'm not going to be surprised if I gained weight! hope not though...When Friday came I just spent the whole day again with my sister going around makati doing some errands and just hanging around the mall. I have got to say that sm prices are really hard to beat. they are even better than bazaars and the styles a basic that you really can't go wrong. Today is Saturday and we are preparing for my sister's "mamanhikan", I don't know if I spelled it wrong. all I know is that it is the time when the guy's family formally asks for my sister's hand in marriage....all that formality is kinda cute. of course the guy will be there too. all this tonight! he he he...my sister's going into the deep end! kidding...it's really cute! the first marriage in the family for us but the last marriage in the family for the guy. abet (the guy) seems to be a nice guy...I just hope that never changes for the worse!...he he he..hope not. anyway...that is all...oh ya! I wasn't allowed to go company hopping with cess, ferdi and jp. real bummer...hoping to see them again. I just printed my resume and giving it to my sister and to my mom. hope that would be enough to get me into a good job I would love to get absorbed into. anyhow.....gotta go so til next time!:D comment if you want:D

hiya again

2005-08-24T07:55:00.000-07:00

it has been a very interesting week.....not going to go further on that....exams na and may I just say that the school is doing a really rotten job of handling our ccf's and eaf's...first you line up to get your ccf...then give it to the SAME office to have it signed! I mean...duh! Sign it na kase! TAMAD!....then you have to line up to the registrar to have them type it and print it! whatever happened to the online enlistment if it's going to be done this way? useless!....anyway....aside from that....BUSSFIN exam was two pronged....the multiple choice and true or false was deceptively easy(meaning could be hard and I got fooled) and the problem solving was supposed to be easy if I re-read my notes more!.....ate a lot of chocolate ice cream....goooood:D.....

lately feeling restless...the feeling that you are at the edge of something about to happen...something big....but you can't do anything to avoid or changed it....you can't or just being too lazy or not knowing what to do....also having to feeling of being in front of a big crossroad now.....things are just getting a bit too real....careless college days are coming to a fast halt....scary.....to many memories and to many people to miss....SHIT!!!

2005-08-20T07:57:00.000-07:00

HA! there is nothing to do but check out websites on corpes bride...so here....got some pics and icons....i didn't post it all but you can go to my photobucket to get them...even the icons

today was different

2005-08-19T10:09:00.000-07:00

last friday of the term...
this morning was oki sana.....mom and dad bropught me to school...saved me from the hassle of commuting....too bad i left my id at home....can't enter cause i reached my limit!me and mikey had to commut going home and get my id pa! that is almost 2 to 3 hours of commuting already done in the morning.funny thing happened in the bus though...so bored that i ended up playing a prank on mikey.....sort of convinced him he was dillusional for a hour hour then told him to seek help...he actually bought it hook line and sinker for at least 2 min. after that i admitted to the truth and boy was he pissed!

after the ride, we hung out in the cube with the guys and i got a flower from mikey!...he he he.....kinf of guilty....then went off to class....

class with jp, cess, and ferdy is always fun...i don't know...i guess their company is always great to have! i'm really going to miss seeing all of them...nest term we are going to split cause of ojt and prac2....hinde na completo...that is why i wanted to have a blogger...a way to keep in touch no matter what.....class was intersting...but the flattering thing was after class...my prof saw me in the library after class and he said that his wife found me really pretty:D flattered to the max! he he he

after...played darts with sila raph and luis in the cube...used somebody's face as a target...luigi! hint! met some people from fencing too:D

went home after then that is it....doing my ITRENDS paper pa...
sige...till nxt time...tata!

this is the second post

2005-08-18T10:42:00.000-07:00

ha! does it work alraedy?

i feel numb for today....

2005-08-17T11:49:00.000-07:00

he he he....going to school is always and weirdly enough....a relief for me. i had to accompany my mom again to the hospital...at least it didn't take too long....started at 8 in the morning and finished at 9:30.....got so puyat pa from the other night that i was dozing off anytime i got the chance....even in the bus on the way to school! when i got on the bus i fell asleep almost instantly...knew this was happening but couldn't stop it!...good thing the bus conductor knew me from all the days that i would ride the bus to school...he was nice enough to wake me up when we were already in front of school! he was very nice but it was SOOOOOOOOOOOO embarrassing! what a way to kick off the day!:D he he he ..... had a debate meeting during u-break...was fun...I’m going to miss the time when all of us get to be in the same room talking of the future of the society...snif snif....i mean, I’m really going to miss those routines! class was okay...have some stuff to finish for BUSFIN and BUSPOLI but at least they are all manageable... HA!!!! i finally got that guy from my class! got to ask a few questions that really put a grin in my face if you know what i mean! hint hint hint! he he he ....would have asked more if it was not time to go yet...even went a bit overtime....jp was about to kill me for delaying him from getting home ASAP....he he he he...but it was well worth it! he he he............

what else happened? oh ya! i got to borrow a cd of e-book compilations of SANDMAN and a good anti-spyware that worked....so more lag......hope this lasts! ....so sleepy na....3:08 am na eh....sige, till next time!

today did not start out right!

2005-08-16T09:21:00.000-07:00

thanks to ferdy who made this blog! if not for him, i would never have donne this!:D thanks!

today was going to be good....jp was going treat us all to luch and a movie. all we had to do was meet up in school at one. sounds good right? yup, id does but that was not how it turned out! when i woke up ready to go to school my mom calls me and no less but ordered me to accompany her to the hospital for her regular check up.....i told he i had class but nooooooooooooo........i guess regular check ups are more important than school....look, i don't mean to be a bad daughter here but i mean, get real! i would gladly skip school if it meant a real emergency but regular check ups are the same as dental appoinments...no biggie! i know in reality i don't really have class but it's the principle that she knew i had class and not cared at all! plus i missed the bday celebe of jp! to think it would be the last for college since we will be out of school by end of december! i'm hardly ever present in the lives of my friends anymore. these are the times when i try really hard to make it and she (mother dearest) just decided to have a real bad dose of timing! and to top it all off! i have to accompany her again tomorrow! ARGH!!!!! this day would have been tottaly recked if not for the people in the cube. hanging out with them sort of makes me calmer...... hay....tom is another day and i hope it becomes a better one:D

by the way...here is the pic of a potential holloween costume:D

here it is!

2005-08-14T09:01:00.000-07:00

my first post